| Alot has changed |
[06 Dec 2007|09:45pm] |
I feel so busy lately.. i can wait till exams are over so that i can relax and enjoy this break.
Update: I am still at the same job and i have a new boyfriend. I really like him. I don't think many people understand it the way i do. I am aware he has had a bad past, seems like a lot of people know about it. But i believe its who you date that makes your relationship what it is and you who you are. like the saying right next to every good man is a good woman. But, besides that I can really relate with him and i like him. I have always wanted to find a guy who has had a passion for Frank Sinatra like i do. He treats me good. I'm happy. Not saying anything bad or that i didn't care about my ex's, because i have.. But with matt.. its different when its one on one we really relate with one another. I like that we have a lot in common and say what each other is thinking a lot.
Everything else is ssdd......
Gosh.. xmas shopping is really hard :(
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| Love on the rocks.. |
[20 Nov 2007|05:52am] |
I am really happy in my life right now :)
Just a bit busy but whatever.... it happens. I learned how to play poker and i won the first time :)
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[19 Sep 2007|12:08am] |
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I love how guys say girls cause drama.. growing up im realizing how dependent guys are on girls.
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[05 Sep 2007|03:15pm] |
I started piano lessons today. my musical background helped me pick it up faster. its really fun.
Mike and i broke up :( Im taking it pretty bad. he just had stuff goin on and i did it because i think it is best for him to get himself in order. :( I found someone who my personality went well with. We may try again when its a better time. i miss him.
its my dads bday so we need to go out.. BYYE!!
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[26 Aug 2007|08:36pm] |
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Went fishing tonight.. it is so relaxing.
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| Henry just grunted <3 awe... |
[25 Aug 2007|07:56pm] |
I felt like a five yr old tonight but it was what i needed.
TOnight I hung out at mikes but we had a really good time we made A huge tent in his room out of sheets and used candles as light and it was so cool and relaxing. He played guitar and sang, and we talked for a long time.
As stupid as some may think this night sounds, it was awesome.. unexpected pleasures.. little things that cost nothing that make me so happy. i loved tonight so much!
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| Poor, Pathetic, Pitiful Me. |
[13 Aug 2007|02:40pm] |
I do have an awesome boyfriend. He is alot i have ever wanted. But i feel like i may destroy it because of my past. Lately and today for some reason someone from the past has been on my mind. Not in the sense of missing him at all, but im still Hurt/Mad at how he was to me. It still upsets me at times. But i almost feel as if i am being untrue to Mike (my boyfriend). Because why should i still be hurting from something in the past if im so happy right now? A Friend from work said its normal to be upset and hurt. But i cant think that its not for some reason.
Anyone have an opinion?
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| Ouch!! |
[02 Aug 2007|07:26pm] |
I got my retainer.. it hurts so damn bad i cant wait till this pain goes away..
Im trying to be healthier eating better and working out. ive been trying to get to the gym and work out alot more.. i cant wait till it pays off.
So i have this friend... i dont know if id call him a friend anymore. he has changed so much and for all of his great advice he had once given it is crap now. i hate how people change. how do you lose you morals? worst part is he doesnt tell me all the things goin on.. but i know. so mr perfect isnt so perfect.
but yea im in alot of pain i need someone to come and rub my gums lol
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| Never Again... for you... |
[31 Jul 2007|06:06pm] |
I hope the ring you gave to her
turns her finger green
I hope when you’re in bed with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
but I don’t wish you well
Could you tell
by the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
'cause I knew what you’d say
Give me that Sunday school answer
tryin' make it all okay
If she really knows the truth
she deserves you
A trophy wife Oh, how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
and he’s through with you
and he’ll be through with you
You’ll die together, but alone
You wrote me in a letter
you couldn’t say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
repent yourself away
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!
Does it hurt
to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
to see my face everywhere
It was you
who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew
exactly what you would do
And don’t say
you simply lost your way
They may believe you
but I never will
I never will
I never will
never again
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[30 Jul 2007|04:35am] |
Since my last post ive learned alot. I went to OCNJ once again and went to school with my aunt in Northern NJ i shadowed the speech pathologist there. I really want to study it. Im almost done ircc, with enough of the slacking i did, its about damn time. So hopefully i will be shipping out soon!
Tim Mcgraw was awesome and sexy... (9th row)
Today ive learned somethings never change. I guess if it is truely love, it never dies and never will. But if it was never love it never will be (i understand somethings change but for the most part) I really dont understand why guys make my life so complicated. why am i still not understood or heard, why can we never be just friends, why are we still arguing and not getting along, why are there hard feelings since we've moved on and why cant we get along?
And, ive just realized why.... because none of those ever happened why should they now?
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| Dont talk to any strangers unless they have alot of money! |
[10 Jul 2007|12:37pm] |
Haha my grandma tells me that every night i go out!
Im in jersey its only been 2 days and ive had alot of fun. i met up with a bunch of my friends and i think i will see more at a party tonight so im really excited! Nothing too new i just had my company party which was alot of fun. i went on this awesome jet boat and then i went on jet ski's and had so much fun got thrown off a few times but it was all in good fun. im pretty sore :)
I cant believe im here... i love ocnj
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| Been so long... |
[11 Jun 2007|09:03pm] |
Well, its been awhile. whats new? Im 20 now. i had a good birthday and got alot of really nice gifts, Flooty got me tim mcgraw tickets, mike got me diamond earrings, amy got me Mac stuff and mandee is helping me get a system in my car. we also went to typhoon lagoon and i swam with sharks!!
Well i have this amazing boyfriend. i want my parents to meet him now.. i wont lie, i was a little worrried at first.The more i get to know him the more i like him. he is so good to me, so caring and conciderate. :)
Finally..
Summer one is almost over im so happy!!!!!! then i can play and have fun!!!!!!!!
this winter mike and i were planning on going on a skiing trip my mom gave me the idea. wouldnt that be cool? a bunch of friends in a cabin? :)
I turn 21 in a year
I think i may get my braces off wednesday!!!!!!
DOES IT GET BETTER THAN THIS??
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| When you think tim mcgraw i hope you think.. |
[14 May 2007|08:49pm] |
OF ME IN 9TH ROW!!!!!!!!
Yeah i got 9th row tickets for tim Mcgraw for my birthday. Im so excited it kinda hasnt hit me yet.
Well life has been really good lately. School is a lil rough and work is boring lol but other than that i have this really awesome boyfriend. He is so nice and conciderate. He makes me really happy :)
I need to start goin to the gym ive gained 7 lbs id just like to lose that. i know it isnt much but it is to me. esp when clothes are tight! AGH!
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[07 May 2007|08:48pm] |
Im so tired
Ive been working and doing school and studying and trying to fit time in for friends and family and im so worn out. i dunno how im even writing on here. of course im just now home at 11:30 when i left my house at nine this morning. im happy im taking these summer classes to get them over with.. but its very difficult with work and my summer life.
Goodnight. i need sleep. hopefully ill have good news next time i write.
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| Let your Hair down |
[04 May 2007|03:19pm] |
The past 2 weeks i have been let down by all my guy friends. Just them doin shitty things that they think arnt a big deal but kinda are. Funny thing is, im supposed to be cool with it! whatever. so im not too happy with most of them. So weird it was like 5 of them seemed like all at once.
I guess im kinda talking to someone. we will see where this all goes.
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| every time I scratch my nails down someones back... I hope you feel it. |
[13 Apr 2007|05:59am] |
Well, this week has been very annoying. i got a stomach virus and was throwing up constantly for like a day.. then the following day i slept. i didnt get out of my bed unless i was running to the toilet. it was pretty bad.
Um, Im sick of the same people and the same liars. Its weird, i know the kind of person some people are but, i dont know why they always let me down even though i expect it... or ill think they have changed but, they havnt. Kinda shitty when i try to be really good to some people.
Seriously, sometimes i think ill be single the rest of my life. lol but thats ok with me. Im gonna work hard and go to school and support who i need to! maybe if i want kids ill go to a sperm bank because honestly, the bullshit with guys is not even worth it these days. ill go out with a guy for 3 days and after that its done. lol ill always find something wrong or it wont work out. its weird
Im so proud of myself i have been eating healthier, and working out at the gym alot. im gonna keep this going and try to get fit. because i want to look super good when i get my braces off in june :) and even better, guess how much i paid to get highlights, lowlights and a hair cut yesturday? (when it normally costs over 100$)....... 6$!!!! how amazing is that?
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| Stupid me, i got excited for nothing... |
[05 Apr 2007|09:02pm] |
I need to meet someone new.
Well i went shopping today the first time in awhile!!! i didnt get much tho. I got this HOTT outfit to go out in, a versache bathing suit (40$ so nice!) and this cute top. im so excited for saturday, its amys birthday and it should be fun.
Oh shit, and i saw chuck today. The girls wanted me to go in the store he was in but i got too chicken. its really hard/awkward for me. I didnt think id ever say that.
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[31 Mar 2007|09:45pm] |
Im guilty of this too, but i HATE when people fight for something and then once they get their way they dont want it or care anymore. Let me put it this way, alot of people thought i was doing the wrong thing and then now that i dont do it they really dont care, or at least i dont think they do.
Well im trying something new, we will see how it all works out in a few days... probably wont but we will see!
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| Call me when your sober |
[28 Mar 2007|01:58pm] |
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Partying is cool, but all the time? I dunno i would think it would get old after awhile. Other things are so much more fun. Drinking kills time, i wanna remember as many good memories as i can. I like drinking but the amount that people drink these days amazes me.
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| Ello luvuh! |
[27 Mar 2007|08:21pm] |
Well this weekend/spring break has been pretty eventful. its nice only workin twenty some odd hours this week. Its a nice break. So i finally went on a jetski for the first time. it was one that you do tricks on so its really hard to ride but today i had it goin as fast as it could go and i was standing on it. they are soo awesome.
The movie 300 is pretty awesome. Oh and i am goin to a professional basketball game. I got VIP tickets so it should be alot of fun!
Im going to make cookies for easter. <3 hopefully i will find time to do that with my muthuh!
Im walking on sunshine....
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